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Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading
So sick and tired of all the needless beating
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Thursday, February 25, 2010
Yes, the truth is.... "I'm tired of all this. Dear heart, please stop aching." Tuesday, February 23, 2010
What ? EeeeR. Okay. I had a long day at work on this particular day and served a very "special" customer. It's a he. A chinese man in his 40s i guess. He came to me and asked me this; Customer: "Are you malay ? " Me: "Yes." Customer: "Do you wanna listen to a malay joke ?" Me "Sure." Well, I had to say that because i don't want him to feel offended or something if i were to say NO. So here goes the "joke"..... Customer: "There was a malay boy who wanted to grab something to eat as he was starving. So he went to a malay stall and asked something like this; "Hello cik, can i get a H1N1 ?" The owner of the stall splashed a bowl of curry sauce to his face. (The customer went quiet, waiting for a reaction i guess) Customer: "What he meant was Hamburger 1 and Nugget 1. (H1N1) And i was like "Eeeerrr... Must i laugh?" Customer: "So how was the joke? Funny right ? HAHAHAHAHAH!" I smiled and went "What the hell? Lame ! haha !" Seriously LAME TO HELL. Well, atleast he tried to be funny, right ? Thursday, February 18, 2010
You, We, Us, Me. "Sometimes we strive so hard for perfection that we forget that imperfection is happiness." Labels: Personal Life Events. Wednesday, February 10, 2010
Loneliness and Depression.  I am going through something very special at the moment, even though it feels very bad. If I felt myself good and happy all the time, then I would always feel that I'm one with the world, with nature; but then, things happen to me that make me feel bad, lonely and depressed. Then, when I feel like this, I find myself incapable of justifying everything around me as being good. Why? Because I feel bad, and if nature and people around me are supposed to be good-"all-giving and all-loving"-then why would I be made to feel like this? I do not understand why it's turned out this way, or where it came from, where I went wrong, or what I did to deserve such loneliness and depression. Many interpret and justify mine and others' pains however they see fit. But everyone agrees that loneliness and depression makes us wonder about what causes it and what its purpose is. The more we are led into loneliness and depression, isolation and confusion, the more we search according to questions of our life's purpose. We might not even be alone physically,we might be in constant contact with friends, workmates, family, and all sorts of people,but inside us is a space that none of these people can fulfill. This space, this deepest point, works on us by bringing confusion, pain, loneliness and depression, and it expresses itself as the most basic question we could ever ask: "What is the meaning of life?" This question, this desire to discover life's true meaning, stands behind every other question and everything we do in this world. No matter what we do to make ourselves feel good, this question waits for us to pay attention to it in our darkest moments. Wanting to discover the meaning of life is the biggest, greatest desire that can appear, and we have been, or will be, put through so much pain so that we will ask this question and start wanting its true answer. Every desire we have is a certain emptiness that needs to be filled, and so the greatest desire thus gives us the greatest feeling of emptiness. We feel the loneliest and the most separation at the point where we desire the greatest connection, and can't have it. And this isn't just a connection to a beer buddy, family or to the opposite sex, but a connection to life's source, where pleasure would fulfill our deepest yearning abundantly. The meaning of life is to reach such a sensation of the universe during this lifetime, that there will be no difference between life and death in this world and existence in another world, on another plane, in another dimension, when one starts to freely live in all the dimensions, and not just in one's present sensation. Labels: Personal Life Events. Friday, February 5, 2010
Only heart that tells you everything.    Labels: you. Wednesday, February 3, 2010
Hilmi !  Well, i really miss this little muffin. When will i get to meet him again ? =( Grrrrrrr-ram laaah ! Labels: you. Tuesday, February 2, 2010
Pain  "Your heart says stay and battle the pain, but your mind says leave for all this isn't needed, broken into pieces for that one an only. But follow your heart because the heart can only take so much. The longer the life the more the offense, the more the offense the more the pain, the more the pain the less defense and the less defense the less the gain.Pain is such an uncomfortable feeling that even a tiny amount of it is enough to ruin every enjoyment." Labels: Personal Life Events. |
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A dream that is so beautiful,
and wish that i could never wake up. |
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